Being Thankful in all Things

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This time of year the morning glories are glorious. They really do like the cooler weather. In the summer, they are closed sometimes even before the first rays of sun hit them if its going to be a hot day. I haven’t had the energy to fool with fall decorating much. I have put a few things out but not like in the past. I haven’t even had the energy to get any pumpkins. It has caused me to think about contentment and being thankful in all things.

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I found while being sick my mind would stray to when I am well I will do this. Or next week I will get this done. Then next week comes and I am not doing anything at all. What I am thankful for is I learned that each day is all I have the strength I have. This one day.

How can I make this one day a great day? How can I make this one person feel special and feel loved? How can I look outside of myself long enough to look upward and pray for whomever God brings to my mind. It has been challenging because I am a person with tons of energy most of the time. I have always been able to push through just about anything to get better. To have my chain jerked has and is a place I have never been before.

april photos 001 I am blessed to have a wonderful family. They have stepped in and taken up the slack. I called Emilie one day and she was at work and she dropped everything to check on me and bring me Sprite which was the first thing I could keep down. I have always been a woman who if I cried, it was in the shower, so no one could hear me. When I wept like that in front of Emilie I wanted to just die. What I learned from this is I am human. Weakness is not something I ever want anyone to see. What I learned from this is, by being like I am, my pride doesn’t like to accept help from anyone. Having to ask for help was tough. But what I found was, by being so prideful. I don’t let others get the benefit of serving. I think it was good to see my pride and how it sometimes isn’t good to try and be supermom.

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Is there a point to all of this? Yes, there is, just me saying that even in a place I didn’t expect to be, I found so many things to be thankful for and to find love when I didn’t expect it. It made my world get very small so that I could rejoice in the small things. Like watching the flicker eat ants outside in the yard. Watching the wind blow through the trees and see the flashes of gold and blue. Hearing the sound of the windchimes and think of Ben and Megan and where in the world are they now. To pray for a new grandson and his Mommy. To think of all of the wonderful little voices I will get to be with soon. Of Peter finally getting back from his trip to Bali and knowing that he is finally safe at home. On and on it goes. But like a Rosary each one of these prayers for others became precious to me. On my heart.

 

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If you are still here, thank you. I really need to write more often here than I do.

I wish you all of the best,

~Kim~

 

8 thoughts on “Being Thankful in all Things

  1. It is so hard to be the one who is needy when you’ve never really been that way before…but yet so good to be the one who is “needed”, at the same time. I’m seeing it with my parents as they age. I’m thankful that you have a wonderful family who is there to help you, and to return the favor to you after you’ve given so much to them!

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  2. Ugh, yes, I’ve been in the same place with this pregnancy. It’s been such a blow to my pride to not be able to do all the things. But I only have so many “spoonfuls of energy”, and when my spoons are used up, that’s all there is.

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  3. I am happy that you are returning to health. It’s hard to be on the receiving end of service, but it’s like we talked about before, the blessings that others are receiving for their service to you are innumerable 🙂
    Also, your family knows of all the times that you’ve been a blessing to them, and they are happy to be a blessing to you in your time of need.
    May you continue to regain your strength and get back to doing the things you love to do, and wish to do.

    Smiles 🙂
    ~K.

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  4. awwww kim, this was hard to read. “sometimes you have to allow yourself to be weak, in order to grow strong”! i hope you continue to feel better and i hope writing about all of this helps you!!

    i LOVE the picture of the boys!

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  5. That last photo is adorable! I’m so sorry that you felt so horrible for a while. I’m so glad you are better! The morning glories are amazing. I hope you feel like Superwoman this week, sweet Kim.

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  6. The little things are so precious, such gifts from God, especially when you don’t feel well and are weak. I’ll say a prayer for you today. Get better soon!

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