Its been a wonderful week. The weather finally cooled off and the sound of the breeze in the wind chimes and being able to open the house is wonderful. I am thankful for the air conditioners, but having the windows open and the air moving through is just so much nicer.
I noticed while out walking that sky is blue again and by the time October gets here the light will be blue and gold. Its hard to stay in the house when the weather is like it is now. I am finally not worrying about my chickens and the heat.
This summer has been different from the others. I have tried to make peace with change. I heard this the other day while I was listening to one of my favorite teachers, who is blind. She said, ” The circumstance God allows does not define me, but God allows it to refine me.” (Jennifer Rothchild) I think this summer I have tried to think about my place in the world and what just is it that God would have me do with my time. In that same message, she also said, ” There is power in a eternal perspective.” I want to rise above the daily challenges to be more than I am now. I want a life that seeks to put others and their needs above my own. I want to live a simple life free from my petty needs and wants. Trying to get loose from all that entraps me is hard. Because at the center of it all, I am just an idolater. My worship is about me rather than God. So having time, I think about these things.
Going to Bible Study is nice. Different this year. I don’t know what our leader did before Bible Study, because she said she worked in a government position. I wonder if she was a prison guard. She is no nonsense sort of person. She makes me feel like I am Winnie The Pooh, all fluff and no brain. One of the other ladies, was a missionary. She seems to me to be suffering from PTSD. We have another woman who is homeless and has lots of issues, but is excited about the Lord. Another couple of ladies have never been in any kind of Bible Study before and two of them are taking care of people with early onset dementia.
I leave the group, feeling like my life is Disneyland. Having Emilie there is good, She keeps me on my toes. She said, ” What Mom, you have had two weeks without a trial and you think you have a perfect life?” She makes me laugh at myself.
So life changes and its still good. I am me in spite of myself. Have a lovely week.